Citizen TV anchor Lillian Muli has opened up about battling depression after her first marriage ended.
During an interview with Talk Central, the TV siren, who was married to Moses Kanene for 7 years, said she was not happy for a long time and that is when they decided to end their marriage.
i wasn’t happy ANYMORE and we weren’t friends anymore. we got to a place where i felt like i was being suffocated. we MUTUALLY agreed that it wasn’t working and that is when we decided to go our separate ways.
The mother of two also added that she went through a hard phase dealing with her divorce. She used to go out and party with friends but the reality of being alone hit her whenever she returned hom. Muli said,
i used to surround myself with cliques thinking i can hide the pain through having many people around.
when you are out, you’re having fun with friends, but then when you go home it gets emotional because after all the fun times i was on my own and i had to deal with it.
Lilian also revealed that she got spiritual and that she was able to battle her dark days through church.
i got really immersed in church, and got really intense with God. i started reading a lot of books and i would be in self help seminars especially spiritual ones. i was in a dark place for a long time but church helped me and eventually, i was able to get out of that.
She also noted that her first born son, Joshua receives full attention from his dad, who is her ex-husband and that they are in good terms.
he was my friend, and he remains my friend to date. we co-parent. Josh has never felt that gap really because we try to balance and protect our children.
The beauty also explained about her pregnancy journey, stating that motherhood was easier the second time around.
these days i’m easier, i’m not as clingy and panicked as i was before. i’ve learnt to let people help and hold the baby, this way i can be able to have my meetings.THAT SUPORT SYSTEM REALLY HELPS WHEN YOU HAVE A NEWBORN CHILD.
Lilian, who is the second born in a family of four said she prefers to keep her children out of the limelight because they did not sign up for the publicity.
ALLOW THEM TO GET TO AN AGE WHERE THEY CAN DECIDE IF THEY WANT TO BE IN AN ADVERTISEMENT OR IN THE PUBLIC
Lillian did, however, say she had to post photos of her first-born when she went on a babymoon because that was part of the terms of the endorsement.
it was necessary.but not any time soon for liam, maybe his feet.